Last night I was at a restaurant with my parents. I was a little upset. We had been talking about my upcoming appointment and the things they might say concerning the results of my sleep study and MSLT.
I got tired and leaned my head against the wall for a moment.
I tried to open my eyes and when I did an older waitress was standing in front of the table.
She looked at me odd and said "Oh honey, you tired?"
I was caught off guard so I just quietly said yes.
She shook her head as she said "Honey, you are much too young to be tired."
I was so surprised.
It is so obvious I am not like them. The waking people.
I tried to laugh a little. My parents said nothing--just kind of stared into space.
I wanted so much to say "ma'am, you have no idea of tired."
But that would be unfair.
I don't know her. Maybe she does.
She walked away and I held back bawling. Just teared up and for the next hour I kept my eyes as open as I could. Tried to act like I didn't feel the way I did.
What do you do in public when things like this happen. Do you shrug it off and move on? Do you say something?