I guess I just needed an outlet to vent and to share my experience of taking the meds nuvigil and adderall.
Recently, I started taking 2.5mg of adderall in the morning and in an hour if it's not working i would take 1/4 of nuvigil. I've been taking adderall to help me study, but I think the dosage aren't strong enough to keep me awake.
So, this morning i was watching some lectures, and I remember staring at the clock and 2 minute later the instructor was going over a multiple choice and I was thinking " Multiple choice? why are they going over a multiple choice? If i was listening I would've known which question they were going over? wasn't I listening?". Then I realized that I must have nodded off, because I remember having a lucid dream that I was very annoyed that something was stuck in my shirt sleeve and it was pricking at my skiin. I also remember having an outer body experience staring at my shirt sleeve to figure out what was annoying me. Anyway, I just wanted to share the weird things that I go through as a "N". All of this happen in just two minutes. Being an "N" sucks.
Also, I've been wanting to up my dosage, but the side effects really drives me nuts. A full pill of nuvigil gives me a bad headache. A full pill of adderall makes me depress.
It's a struggle being an "N".