Sooo i've been supplementing my morning Provigil with 10mg Dextroamphetamine ER in the morning and another at noon. Things have been absolutely AWESOME as of late with my EDS. No problems to report there haha.
What I did notice though, especially when I cheat on my sleep schedule is Depersonalization.
Usually on weekends when I am extra lazy I get a solid 12-14 hours of sleep and wakeup around 2 p.m. I don't want to take a Provigil AND a Dexedrine so I usually just take one 10mg Dex. Maaaybe after staying up an hour and eating a bit I go back to bed and wake up at 5 p.m. go about my night life activities with friends or family and then resign to bed around midnight. (12).
Only when I do ^^^^^ this routine do I really notice the Depersonalization. It feels like I am back in the 7th grade and and the most interesting place to be is in my own mind haha. I can barely contribute to any conversation, get distracted with my own thoughts, stare into space, and feel more interested in reading a book at home, alone, then being out with friends. In fact it feels more as if I am an invisible observer within my group of friends, examining each behavior, each sentence, each attitude, and trying to translate it into sensible data. I feel less like a person and more like a sponge. Absorbing information, but never really giving anything back.
In other words, it sucks, because chicks do not dig sponges. Especially sponges that are more interested in an Economics book they found in the store they were shopping in, than them.
So does anyone have any experience with this and any advice on how to fight this? I have lived most of my life as a very reserved introvert and only within the last year have started opening up to the extroverted world. I kind of hate that I am retreating into my own thoughts again. Other than stopping Dex, any advice would be great.