"You just need the right one, because it is not easy being apart of a PWN and Cataplexys life"
well said 'misssleepy'...
About to be 33, really have never had a 'serious' relationship, hardly even anything beyond friendships. A fling or two when I was under 20, but such never was anything more than such.
Dating is different than having a relationship, which comes later. Edit- Although, I really have no idea and that, is only an observation / presumption. - End Edit
The trouble I've had, especially in hindsight now being able to look back at it, Cataplexy interferes dramatically.
It's not trouble with expressing through words as much as it is being able to lift your arm/s, or make that first step; to touch, to kiss, to express what is not only words.
It be nice if society and culture didn't make it all on the man, to at least make the first step... =/
Always have been patient, assuming one day things would just click, that a relationship would appear as something mutual and natural.
Yet, perhaps that is the downfall, overly respecting and overly analyzing; not being objective, actually being honest..?
I can't play all the little, basic and standard [simple for other, as it seems and/or appears, often]; games, I'll call them.
Such, exhaust me immediately and even within just simple chit chat.
Although, a deep engaging conversation would be exhausting in a different way, such just doesn't occur as I have no idea how to arrive there.
Being asked for some change, or asked directions, chit chat; tends to result in perhaps a freeze/pause, mumble, a bobbing and/or drooping of the head, a facial spasm.
So, I appear like some heroin using degenerate being; even though it's just Cataplexy.
At this point, I just accept it all as being whatever it is, I don't have such energy; a loss, a gift, a real heavy pain, a lot of alone time, a transparent bubble all of my own which fits only with my own it seems.
'Paradise Hell', it is and/or may/can be.!